This past week I ran a half-marathon -- woo! woo!! I tried to eat well, but I also had a lot of meals where I enjoyed what I wanted. Obviously I crazy carbo-loaded on Friday night at Olive Garden in preparation of my race Saturday morning. This challenge has really made me think about my weight in a good way. Ever since I graduated high school I've been concerned about my weight -- even when I didn't need to be. I can remember being a sophomore in college and chugging slimfast because I had gained 5 pounds. Totally ridiculous! I now realize how nuts that was, and I don't want to go back there again. And in some ways I think that I've been creeping back to this place. The place where I obsess over my image when I shouldn't.
Here's where I find myself torn -- I want to enjoy life. I want to be healthy, but I also want to eat pizza and drink beer occasionally (both of which I did last night). I know that if I cut out cupcakes and other "bad foods" I could probably drop more weight, but at what cost?
I am really proud of how healthy I am right now. I may not be stick thin, but I know that I'm healthy because of my running. And I'm starting to realize that health is WAY more important to me than being a size 0 (or 2 for that matter). I think the idea is usually that health and thinness go together, but I don't believe in any way that the two equal each other.
I still lost a little weight this past week, and I'm excited about that. But at the same time I think I'm ready to let go of my need to loose more weight. I am definitely at a healthy weight for my height, and more importantly -- I feel good. My clothes feel good, and I am doing a lot of running. I am going to continue to run and eat well, but I'm also going to enjoy foods at the same time. When I first started my "weight loss journey" a year and a half ago I did need to loose weight. I was pushing 150, and I was not living an active lifestyle. A lot has changed since then, and I'm proud of it. I think I've reached the maintenance phase now, and that's what I plan on working on. I'll still check back each week to finish off the challenge, but my goals have definitely changed.
Starting weight: 134.2
Current weight: 133.4
Pounds lost: 0.8