I feel like I'm at a crossroads with my running. I accomplished my dream of running a marathon last month, and since then things have continued to change. I set out to run another marathon in April, before realizing Mathis and I didn't have the time/energy to run another full-marathon so soon. Then I became determined to work on speed and aim for the goal of running a 2-hour half-marathon. After setting this goal, I went on vacation, got sick and went without running for 10 days.
So here I am now. Still signed up for a half-marathon in March and another one in April. No longer do I feel prepared/motivated enough to aim for a 2-hour goal, and I don't know where to go from here. I ran 2 miles last night and it was tough -- I know I'm still coming off my cold, but it was frustrating. I don't have much energy or motivation to run right now. I think once I pick back up again I'll feel fine, but I don't even know which training plan I should follow right now.
Running is still important to me, but I'm in a season where it's no longer the priority in my life. And I'm struggling to figure out how to run without making it one of my biggest priorities. I think I'm honestly leaning towards just running for fun. When I want to. How I want to. Just running. Simple as that. No constant eye on my Garmin to figure out my pace. No guilt over my speed. No pressure on running a certain distance.
I follow Hal Higdon on twitter, and yesterday he said, "Don't make running such a big deal. It's something we do an hour a day so should not let it get in the way of our real lives". I think this tweet perfectly sums up my thoughts right now.
It's hard for me to let go of having everything planned out a certain way. I can be very Type A, and I like to know what I'm doing pretty much all of the time. :) But I think right now is a really great time for me to back off of running. I still love running very much and I'm not going to stop by any means, but I think I need to let go of all the pressure I've built up. I am signed up for three very fun races right now. Races that I intend to run well, but races I want to have fun at. While I hope to eventually work on speed, I'm not sure this is the best season for that. I don't know what the next year will hold with running. But as long as I'm happy and running injury-free then I think I will have succeeded.
Time: 30 minutes
Miles this Week: 2.5
Miles this Month: 2.5